I Love You Just as Though You Were My Own
love you just as though you were my own,
Though you are not the children of my blood.
Love is not lodged within one's flesh and bone,
But in one's heart, which goes which way it would.
I married into you, as into wealth,
Or into some bright mansion, just by chance.
You were not why I came, nor what I felt
That made me give my life to this romance.
Yet once we were a family, out of need,
Love came bubbling up from some sweet spring,
Watering the newly planted seed
That it might in the will of sunlight sing.
So may we long remain through love and art:
Stepparent and stepchildren of the heart.
Ant and I met.
met Ant in a MSN parenting group called PANS. I
joined PANS in November 2002.
I always enjoyed reading his posts on the boards
and he has a great sense of humour, which made
going into the chat room, lot's of fun!
He was going through a hard time in February 2003
and decided to leave the group. The group just
didn't seem the same without him. After a couple
of months had passed, I emailed him. I wanted to
let him know that I was there for support if he
needed to chat.
He emailed back and for the next few days we sent
each other quite a few emails. I invited him to
add me to MSN Messenger.
first night we chatted on messenger, we just
I went to bed feeling very happy and excited at
this new turn of events! Lol
The next night, we chatted on messenger again and
again, it was a wonderful night. After he went
offline, he phoned me. We chatted all night, only
putting the phone down around 7am the next
For the next few days, we were either talking on
messenger, sending emails to each other or on the
phone for hours at a time!
It wasn't long before we decided to meet. I was
nervous but extremely excited at the thought of
meeting him. I'd fallen head over heels in love
Our first meeting was one of the most wonderful
days of my life. I knew I was in love with him
from the moment our eyes met. It sounds corny I
know but it's true!
We had a few problems in the first few weeks due
to us still getting over other relationships and
for a while it looked like we weren't going to
make it but we talked a lot and managed to sort
out the problems.
I was happier than I'd ever been in my life, I'd
never been in love with anyone like I was with Ant
and I was looking forward to our future together.
All Ant's children (he has 6 of them) accepted and
welcomed me and my son, Aiden, into the family.
Ant would spend a few days at my house each week
and when he got a house of his own (he'd recently
moved from Ireland and was staying with his dad
temporarily until he got a house) I'd go for long
Things were going great until the end of October.
We had a few problems and instead of staying and
talking it through, like we'd always done before,
I went home.
We were apart for just under four weeks and those
weeks the most painful weeks of my life. I never
believed anyone could feel so much pain because a
Luckily, throughout the four weeks, we were still
in contact via email and we managed to sort things
out and get back together.
Aiden and I moved in with Ant, Jervais and Jerome,
in January 2004.
On Valentines day, Ant proposed :o) It was so
romantic, I just cried! I was so happy and
thankfully, am still happy to this day :o)
I became Mrs A on April 30th 2005 and I just love
being married :o)
beautiful baby KayCee was born on 2nd August at
12.04pm. She's our gorgeous little princess and
we're both over the moon! :o)
there we have it, thanks to PANS, (and to MSN lol)
I've found my soul mate and I'm so lucky to be
step mum to six wonderful people who I love as if
they were my own.
It's all worked out great for Aiden too...he has a
wonderful relationship with his dad, and his dads
family, and now he has another father figure. His
relationship with Ant is excellent, he's a very
lucky five year old, to have so many people who
love him :o) and he's excited at the prospect of
being a big brother!